pink?? nahhhhh.... gimme green netime

aaj bhi baitha kucch sochta hoon main aksar,
ki manzil khas hai ya yaadon bhara safar ....
kitni aage nikal aaya hoon main aaj yahaan
par dikhte hain sirf peecchhhe chhoote hue nishaan .

well for those of u cudnt make head or tails out of this (although i dont think u shud b even reading this if u r concerned abt ur mental health ..) it is an expression of debate tht rages in me .. whether the goal is more important or the journey itself, for after u have reached one goal, there is another one to be taken, but in the process, the memories tht remain r those of ur efforts, failures, triumphs ....

n those r all i hav nw ... its these things tht have made it worth it to try and achieve the goal... green? ah yes green, the color of the grass, the playgrounds, the parks, the swings, the slides ... why do i feel so nostalgic again? dunno ... evrything frm those toy guns to the comics we used to share n "xchange", those tumblings frm the bicycle, those wounds n dressings, those injections n bawlings .. i can see it all .... i have been trying to run away frm these .... tried to shut myself out, n then all of a sudden, i'm a nobody ... i run back to grab these memories ... finally i feel complete again.
"the complete boy" ahhh raymonds would be so amused at this. i, for one, am definitely amused and smiling.

....... or Pink?

hum aaj bhi aksar wahaan jaate hain. koi hawa ka jhonka kanon ko chhookar nikal jaata hai ... aur chhod jaata hai woh baatein, woh shabd aur woh yaadein ....

We played king of the mountain out on the end
The world come chargin' up the hill, and we were women and men
Now there's so much that time, time and memory fade away
We got our own roads to ride and chances we gotta take
We stood side by side each one fightin' for the other
We said until we died we'd always be blood brothersNow the
hardness of this world slowly grinds your dreams away
Makin' a fool's joke out of the promises we make
And what once seemed black and white turns to so many shades of
gray
We lose ourselves in work to do and bills to pay
And it's a ride, ride, ride, and there ain't much cover
With no one runnin' by your side my blood brother
On through the houses of the dead past those fallen in their
tracks
Always movin' ahead and never lookin' back
Now I don't know how I feel, I don't know how I feel tonight
If I've fallen 'neath the wheel, if I've lost or I've gained
sight
I don't even know why, I don't know why I made this callOr if
any of this matters anymore after all
But the stars are burnin' bright like some mystery uncovered
I'll keep movin' through the dark with you in my heart
My blood brother

my blood brother ......
Bruce Springsteen

Rang De Basanti ... or mebbe Blue or ....

after a long time, another blog comes up. well been busy for smtime n then i wanted o write this travel account, but just kept waiting... khair, here i am , this i sme, there is nowhere else on earth,i wud rather b..dunno if i hav already written this before, but nevertheless here goes again. it all started with a suggestion tht we hav a special IIMK screening for RDB, and with alumni coming over for the weekend, a time for them to relive their old coll days n .... u get it dont u? the reason i am writing this is not because i desp want to see tht movie, not because i am interested in meeting up the alumni or trying to foster desh prem or bandhutva ... but because i found myself in typical HDS style, being a jumble of contradictions. i spoke of this idea (not mine, but courtesy the new bulletin board) to sm1 else n he shot it down with the harsh reality tht it isnt feasible. smtime later, i was again mooting this idea to a different person and i found myself speaking in a completely different, a nayasayer type and a pleasant surprise was tht the other person suggested tht it is a gud idea n cud b taken up seriously. it was then tht smthing hit me. n it hit hard. yes, we did hav a few gud men who kept alive the spirit. .... and tht is pecisely the reason why i am writing this piece (sounds like i am upto sm masterpiece work hehehe ..). life isnt always a bitch, you dont have to be perfect, some things are not tangible. what matters the most is tht u know what path u r going to walk on. u understand fully what all difficulties you might end up facing ... it is then that u continue further, knowing tht despite all the pain, this is still the best path for you. now why i am stating this last bit of philosophy in this blog which began on a rather different note. its because i didnt expect tht one gentleman to drive home this fact. but he did it and i must say better than most ppl wud hav done it. and then again, when i was about to lose my cool with a few of the bumbling idiots, it was he again who unintentionally and without the use of words, told me to calm down. this brings me to the main point a hint to which i had given a few sentences back. in gettin bothered by each and everything, we might end up missing tht which really matters. it was this which was my most imp learning frm the Goa trip n now again n both times it was sm1 else who showed this to me. life is not at all a bitch, the spirit cannot be dominated and shall continue to soar higher and higher, its ok to make mistakes sometimes .....

"Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own"

U2 - sometimes you cant make it on your own