Friday, February 17, 2006

responsibility, maturity, morality ....

too much hawa hawai stuff ? if you think so, then you are one of those good old hammer and tongs kinda guys who ought to be kept in the museum. the words are very real, their implications deep. but should there be a limit to what we can call as our duty ? should those duties override one's right or vice versa ? yaar bahut panga hai. khair, let me return to the reason why i started writing this blog. i was reading the state of union address delivered by President Bush to the American people recently. although i was supposed to read a critic of the address and express my opinions on that piece, i couldn't resist the temptation to go ahead and read the article. and it was then that i realised that we have not been able to live upto the promise because we have never addressed ourselves. i dont mean the political implication. frankly, i have never eard any speech by any of the top members of the legislature/executive/judiciary. the reason is that i have seldom had enough respect for most of them and hardly ever the time and patience. nothing against Dr. Manmohan Singh and Dr. Kalam, both of whom are doing an excellent job and are one of the most capable men for the job. however, what i am referring to is the division amongst ourselves. the US pres calls on both parties to take their nation forward. what we do is try to put forward our own agnda. the president speaks of the history and glorifies leaders of both parties. we try to dig up old issues which have lost significance and in fact have been forgotten from public memory. a bill which is seen as against the public policy is questioned by everyone. we have lost the power to question because our own hands are tainted.


next comes the mindset. we have never considered ourselves as leaders. even the OB questionnaire confirmed this. i am no exception. even i had other notions of leadership, but i believe, that for myself, i am the best leader, the biggest superhero, the brightest star. vainity, maybe. but i say that because i believe that i have the senses to decide for myself. i may learn the hard way, or i may gain from others' experience and may correct myself. but voulnatry surrenderng to others or seeking to be led is no longer an option. learn from the richest nation and adapt their good practices. giving the Aussies back their due in sledging or bidding to take over the world's second largest steel maker, that is the way it should be. dream to do something good. innovate, get newer ideas to achieve the dream, achieve your goal. the one thing missing is Leeading. lead all the way from dreaming things others dont. doing it the way nobody does. achievement that celebrates the spirit of leadership.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

masla kya hai ?

or should i call it "lalach buri bala hai" ? dunno, like most things these days, it could be either, subject to extraneous factors which give rise to organisation wide synergies. what that means is total bull crap that i am subjected to these days. worse part of it all is that there seems to be n respite from it all. i seeem to be sinking further in this muck. i have already written once about this, will write once again. i dint know where to begin from, where i left the last time round, claiming about Aukaat, or should i say that God is definitely not a socialist. tht there are no naxals to fight out in heaven. all of them musta gone to hell ! hey JPN u listening up above ? the reason why i write this is because my belief in the values is terribly shaken today. come on man, how greedy can you get ? its not about randomness, like i discussed in tht other blog, but is all about how equitable is it for some people to get screwed just because they were trying to help out in a social cause ? i dont claim to be a oh-so-goody-goody-guy, but yes, i have often acted out for the iterest of the people, but what i am now considering is whether the people deserved it ? surely there were some people who did, but then what about those parasites ? i have no other words for them, even though in the strictest form of the word, they are "self made men". who have theor excellent cgs to thank for enabling them to take any usbject of their choice that they want etc. butdo they really want those subjects ? systems backround, will get a good laterals job in sys. maybe even a ppo in sys. and majoring in fin and ops. why the hell ? just cos ops looks like a value add for the cv. and then u'll have the privilege of showing that u have a diverse experience. if these bastards appear for an ops co n then later dont join it in favor of a fin/sys co, wud ne1 question them ? what moral right do i have to crib about this when i did smthing even worse in engg. but tht agument would be something like "the lady's" argument. comparing two scenarios when there isnt any similarity.
and i am pressing cntrl+s to save whatever i have written in this blog. slaves of tech man.


but yes, continuing with the main thing, should i feel satisfied that i have at least done something good or should i too become like one of these zombies ? man i dont take BS and i dont give BS to others. one results in low grades in global courses, the other leads to poor grades in "mugga" courses. we are going back to where we started from. and the hidden previous blog. deja pooh. man in my election speech i said tht i am learning a lot here and will continue to learn. is the learning good? is the learning bad? and now i again ask myself, whether i have truly learnt my lesson of never wilting from the path of totalitarian good even in the case of the worst odds ? it for instances liek these that i like to believe in God (not Mithunda in case you are wondering). sorry for the balsphemy, but seriously, this is the first time in my life that i am leaving a blog with questions unanswered. a blog has always been the discovery of the inner me, wherein i talk to the blog, and the blog answers back, but actually its just me who has found the answers. )the reason why itso abstract usually) maybe this realisation has caused the magic to fail. hmmmpppphhhh i wish i could proudly say like Spencer Johnson, "i am a failure" but i guess its the fear of hurting the loved ones, maybe letting them down ... the komrade fighter spirit is going, and i guess so must i.


HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Thursday, February 9, 2006

poetry time

waise, if u look at it, theres nothing new abt it. this is an old compositin of mine writeen on 13 Feb, 2002. will leave evrything to speculation as to wht happened next, but u prob know the answer.


the sun is up and the sky is blue           (yeah i know sounds like Bryan Adams)
this dawn today has a lovelier hue
the mist has given way to pearly drops of dew
but the one thing missing is you, you and you.


hey seriously this was a genuine compo after seeing a lot of foggy days. i hadnt even heard tht Bryan Adams song then. n there r many more where they cm from. and the reason for this stil as to be uncovered, right?


@ Ankit: yaar i only wrote those Hindi shayari things, not the Bruce springsteen song ... i simply didnt giv the credits for tht ;)