masla kya hai ?

or should i call it "lalach buri bala hai" ? dunno, like most things these days, it could be either, subject to extraneous factors which give rise to organisation wide synergies. what that means is total bull crap that i am subjected to these days. worse part of it all is that there seems to be n respite from it all. i seeem to be sinking further in this muck. i have already written once about this, will write once again. i dint know where to begin from, where i left the last time round, claiming about Aukaat, or should i say that God is definitely not a socialist. tht there are no naxals to fight out in heaven. all of them musta gone to hell ! hey JPN u listening up above ? the reason why i write this is because my belief in the values is terribly shaken today. come on man, how greedy can you get ? its not about randomness, like i discussed in tht other blog, but is all about how equitable is it for some people to get screwed just because they were trying to help out in a social cause ? i dont claim to be a oh-so-goody-goody-guy, but yes, i have often acted out for the iterest of the people, but what i am now considering is whether the people deserved it ? surely there were some people who did, but then what about those parasites ? i have no other words for them, even though in the strictest form of the word, they are "self made men". who have theor excellent cgs to thank for enabling them to take any usbject of their choice that they want etc. butdo they really want those subjects ? systems backround, will get a good laterals job in sys. maybe even a ppo in sys. and majoring in fin and ops. why the hell ? just cos ops looks like a value add for the cv. and then u'll have the privilege of showing that u have a diverse experience. if these bastards appear for an ops co n then later dont join it in favor of a fin/sys co, wud ne1 question them ? what moral right do i have to crib about this when i did smthing even worse in engg. but tht agument would be something like "the lady's" argument. comparing two scenarios when there isnt any similarity.
and i am pressing cntrl+s to save whatever i have written in this blog. slaves of tech man.

but yes, continuing with the main thing, should i feel satisfied that i have at least done something good or should i too become like one of these zombies ? man i dont take BS and i dont give BS to others. one results in low grades in global courses, the other leads to poor grades in "mugga" courses. we are going back to where we started from. and the hidden previous blog. deja pooh. man in my election speech i said tht i am learning a lot here and will continue to learn. is the learning good? is the learning bad? and now i again ask myself, whether i have truly learnt my lesson of never wilting from the path of totalitarian good even in the case of the worst odds ? it for instances liek these that i like to believe in God (not Mithunda in case you are wondering). sorry for the balsphemy, but seriously, this is the first time in my life that i am leaving a blog with questions unanswered. a blog has always been the discovery of the inner me, wherein i talk to the blog, and the blog answers back, but actually its just me who has found the answers. )the reason why itso abstract usually) maybe this realisation has caused the magic to fail. hmmmpppphhhh i wish i could proudly say like Spencer Johnson, "i am a failure" but i guess its the fear of hurting the loved ones, maybe letting them down ... the komrade fighter spirit is going, and i guess so must i.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY