two parts marketing channels, one part services, on the rocks with gyaan ...

the theory of absolut salesmanship goes something like this : u like a product because of certain of its intrinsic features. however, if you start liking it too much, you might end up doing something unappropriate. so u try to avoid doing something that u want to do. if pleasure denied isnt pain enough, its even more painful to see others having fun. and when you are trying to avoid, you end up being unnatural. but the very reason for liking the product was because it complimented you so beautifully and naturally. so u end up spoilingthe utilitarian value of the product. take a deeeep  breath. exhale. feeling better? no? just blame the illustrious placecomm and their binging and creative eccentric excesses. good night

main Devdas ek badnaam ...

oh shit! i cant possibly be writing about this .. this was supposed to be my secret .. was supposed to carry it with me till my grave .. it was to be my own little love story ... Was To Be ... but i blew it all away ... i know i did, but dont know why i did it ... i deliberatley tried to avoid her gaze whenever she was around .... i know this caused her anguish .. at least on one occasion i could sense that clearly ... but i still did it .... without telling her how much more anguish it caused me to be doing such a thing ... how much more anguish i felt in knowing i was causing her pain .. of all people her .... but i continued to do it .. until the day it dawned on me that she no longer felt anything ... and imagine my pain now ... if there is some way i can win you back my dear, please tell me .. i know o have been a fool o ignore you like that ... but i shout it out now ... I love you ... yes, i love you ... please tell me you love me too ... please tell me that you will let me ride on your saddle once more ... let me twist and turn those gears once more .. oh please ... after all its the Tour de France :)

jaage hain, soye nahin ...

well, i am not an atheist .. it helps a lot of people sleep better. no, they arent the OPus Dei types who atcually care too much about my religious/spiritual(me? huh?) inclinations. hell no, its here tht i have understood truly the meaning of being an agnost .... and realised that i definitely am not one. no, they are the ones whom i tell that its God's grace tht keeps me from crossing the line between my personal liberties and insanity resulting in others' inconvenience. and today, i almost came too close to doing it as well. but u know, it wasnt me ... it was something else that had taken control over me ... (oh c'mon, cut the evil spirit exorcism crap) ..and i understood that only when i acted natural. which i have never been shy of and always been proud of. but today, even the activities that i normally do were laced with an intention of making a statement. too much digression, sorry. coming back to the agenda, i was actually trying too hard to be cool, like so many others. but it wasnt exactly working out and then it was an even greater artificial attempt. such a vicious cycle. but thankfully, there was still something of the real me left, and that was what rescued me. it just happened ... i was myself and cool at the same time .. finally. thts cos my definition of cool had changed. no longer was it determined by the others. no longer did i need someone else's certification. and i could clearly see why i wasnt cool, in being myself or when trying too hard.

and then, the final solution .. some Lucky Ali music ! and if u r thinking why i titled this post after Jal's song ... its cos i am feeling very sleepy and cudnt decide in which state i am ... and hence ... looks like a continuance of an earlier post as well ;) but now that i am comfortably numb with sleep, i am gonna doze off now .... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
sleeping sure is the cool thing to do in the night :) .. as also is talking to oneself, or dancing on the stairs ... hmmm