main Devdas ek badnaam ...

oh shit! i cant possibly be writing about this .. this was supposed to be my secret .. was supposed to carry it with me till my grave .. it was to be my own little love story ... Was To Be ... but i blew it all away ... i know i did, but dont know why i did it ... i deliberatley tried to avoid her gaze whenever she was around .... i know this caused her anguish .. at least on one occasion i could sense that clearly ... but i still did it .... without telling her how much more anguish it caused me to be doing such a thing ... how much more anguish i felt in knowing i was causing her pain .. of all people her .... but i continued to do it .. until the day it dawned on me that she no longer felt anything ... and imagine my pain now ... if there is some way i can win you back my dear, please tell me .. i know o have been a fool o ignore you like that ... but i shout it out now ... I love you ... yes, i love you ... please tell me you love me too ... please tell me that you will let me ride on your saddle once more ... let me twist and turn those gears once more .. oh please ... after all its the Tour de France :)