desire, duty, dreams

drifter, dreamer, drop out ... am i serious of my self professed vocation? or just too fond of getting high? what can i say about the truths i hold and the lies i tell? about the fires that burn within me and what is left once the flames die out. and even when i am true to most people, am lying to myself. and i threw it all away. yeah i threw away the keys. good for whom? not for me. maybe not even for you. i want my life back. i want the life in my life back. i also want my campus back. i want my net speed back, i want my mess parties back. i want happy to come back. i want you to ome back ... not sure where you are right now, not sure whether you will ever come back,not sure why i let you go away, nay, pushed you away. i want you again. again after all i have done. again, cos i want a new beginning. again, cos i actually want a beginning. finally.