alot can happen over coffee .. or so they say ... well, a lot did happen buthen only if you start counting events as incidents ... well dont get me wrong, we did have a good amount of bonding taking place between us but there wasnt an emotional catharsys ... in fact it was like this last sentence .. sounded really nice but otherwise nothing to leave an impression .. but what did leave an impression was a solitary stand of defiance. man what does it take to stick to your guns in spite of all odds? what exactly? it was like Gandhiji having come alive once again ...man a lot did happen over Blueline ... it was the beginning of a journey without the traveller knowing what had happened until he had already gone beyond the point of no return. well you could wait and die there itself or maybe move on ... somewhere in the dark ... but what lights the path is the faith u have within... true there were a few candles there that did remind me of RDB but i was seeing beyond ... or rather i was feeling something that lay close yet very very far ... the voice doesnt echo or cause any of that fantastic effect but haunts me down.... and haunts me at instances when i am already haunted by absurd happenings ... can all these be a pointer to something?
well i'll move on to another few topics that i wanted to share for a long time ... the first one being an email forward that actually spoke about boosting your self esteem. man was i in need of one? i guess not. but then i liked it. it said commend urself dont wait for foreign appreciation .. hmmm.. gotta do tht more often ... start journlising to help u share ur pain ...and thts what i am doing right now ... well a host of other ones as well but i have forgotten about them nw ... the reason being that thinking of all those points like neglect failures etc made me see more of my failures .. yet the two things that actually i thought would help are still stuck in here ... conclusion i can really move on after a bad patch.
which reminds me of the other article which appeared in the sunday supplement of HT on 19 Mar 2006 .. and it spoke about how a negative frame of mind will ctually lead u into looking for a partner with a negative frame of mind . which will lead to a failed relationship and plunge u further in the depths of despair ...vicious cycle ... but that did look pretty much true . so somepeople will always have a loosing relaionship cos they are biologically intuited to seek out other loosers like him/her ... and then came this thought ... am i seeking out another wild spirirt like me who does not wish to be a part of a relationship? but how can i seek out if i love my independence so much? aaaahhhhh. man i understood finally that i am destined to remain a singleton for the rest of my life ... the ideal "made for me" person is also destined to b a singleton. unless of course Cupid strikes in between. but am in no hurry for that eiher ;)
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