thinking about doing .....

everyone has been telling me to grow up. but dude i have grown up! in the train strangers no more ask me where i study, bjut the discussion centres around wht job i am in? often i just tell them am searching for one .. which is true in some aspects. at parties, ppl tell their naughty children not to bother "uncle". another few years and rhe world will be "grey". and then i think. what have i done in the last 22 years? the answer is not an easy one. in  fact i cant get an answer at all. and then i think that maybe i dont have what it takes to o something. anything at all. no i am not gettiing negative, but i have practically lost half of what i treasure .. and am loosing it all the time .. trying to do something is only driving me away. wel i think of all thts past, tohse free discussions tht have now turned formal, those sacrifices tht are now seen as an investment.. man i wanted to do something, have done it for the sake of something else but have lost something in return. i hope i can give back and get back something too.