yaara silly silly

so when do you really know ? or do you really ever know ? there was no way i could have withstood the onslaught ... eventually gave in and am here now .... still ... ummm .. doing something which was initially called "looking for answers" .. the answer to my question came in the form of a number of questions, .. questions for which i had no answers .... like never remembering to mail anyone on his birthday but checkin mailbox every 5 min .... its like pretty connecte to people but again disconnected from their inner self .... when do you really know  when have you lost it ? when its too late ? or is it ever too late ? guess you can only be too early .... or can you ? looking for perfection has probably done more harm to itself than anything else ... so when do you really know ? and then when you do, does everyone else know ? is everyone else ready to know ? and probably, they already know something for the time for them has come but you dont really know .... so when do you really know ? i started this with the prefixed notion that its best to let the expert decide ... but then i guess its too busy with self pity ... starting what it cant finish ... cant even endure getting finshed ... so i guess its only when you find your favourite things dont attract you anymore that you realise ... that now you know ... like now ... like here ....its time for me to sleeeeep :)